Today I have been offered a locum dispenser shift at my very first pharmacy I managed. It is no longer a Boots pharmacy but a little independent one. Pharmacy as an occupation is what I had passion for, was good at and enjoyed engaging with customers.
Now I have ADHD (recently diagnosed) and I suffer horrendously with Rejection sensitivity disorder (RSD for short). This means I am doubting myself before I have even got to the shift. Things like will I be able to work on a new pc program and pick it up quickly? Will people like me? What time do I need to leave so I am there early? What type of services do they do? Is the manager going to get on with me…. The list goes on and I have not even stepped foot over the threshold yet.
Luckily this is a trial period for me and the manager to see how we get on. For me this is so important as I will need constant feedback and validation to put my RSD to bed. However I am due my first lot of ADHD medication to come in the post any day now… this could be the game changer I need to help me focus and aspire to do the Pharmacy Technician Course again in the future.
No matter what today brings, it will confirm if my love of pharmacy and supporting people is still there and whether mine and the businesses core values aline.
Wish me luck x
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